My future seems so full of life  And brighter now than it has ever been,  But somehow I just can't allow  My shell to crack  And let the sun shine in...  Today I feel so sick  Today I feel comfortable with this  If I should die before you  I'll always be around to guide you  In your center you'll find me  And in the sky as a star still shining  But if If i can't pick myself back up  Just enough to see above the haze  My family buries the middle son  The church bells ring,  They don't know what to say...  They don't say anything at all...  The silence takes control of me  There's violence in my circuitry  And one day I won't feel so sick  But first comes the fall...