You never know what you have till it's lost to someone else  You never understand until the end  You never want to be advised of what you had  And yet, you never have a shadow of a doubt  You never think about anything until it doesn't matter  You never see a clear picture without  Then all at once, your life falls apart  and you're left within the depths of a personal hell, unable to be broken  away from, and you wonder what if you had done different  and you realize nothing really matters  You always did everything they way they wanted, but never how they expected  You always protected as they knew you would, disregarding the loss  You always trusted, but sometimes too much  (Refrain)  Then all at once, you wonder why  You recapture all the stabb  ings  you pull out the knife and stare at the wounds,  the scars that you never knew existed  When did they  How could they  What were they  Why would they  Where have they  Who are they  (As Originally Written by XTrace's Former Lead Vocalist, Reva DeMartino; As  Originally Performed in Vital Aggression)