When i think to myself,   And i wonder what ive done   To deserve all the pain,   That i have inside,   Alone in my bed,   I try not to see what i could have been   Your new boyfriend,   That's just what i want,   For christmas this year,   Ill pray and I'll beg   I just need you here   I just need you right here     A small thing,   That im asking   I just need someone to hold me near,   And i need, your arms were holding me tight untill i fall asleep   And i can't think of no one else,   I miss you so much that i hate myself   I think of all the things i should have said   But now you're gone and im in pain