I cannot feel now  Emotions disappear  State of nonbeing  Consumes the remnants here  Desensitized to myself  Cannot sense the center  Covered in a white shroud  Buried unmarked grave site    Shell of former self here  Drained of all my feelings  Winter gale whips me  Mirrors desolation  Visions are within me  Denigrated cast out  No one else allowed close  I endure the chaos alone    Cutting deep I try to feel  A semblance of a life that’s not  Never want existence here  Will not leave a fucking trace  Destroy my memories  As you wipe me from the conscious mind  Seeking ending to this life  That I choose to leave behind  Leave the barren world to you  I will cross that long barred gate  Reach the state of nonbeing  Swept away by winds of time  Into the abyss I go  Never to be seen again  Leave it all behind, no fear  Oblivion that comes at last