Face black another shadow of innocence tainted   Gave back all the lights and glitter   Wrong track again and again is stings   Wish you all could feel like this   12 is for the reason of regret   9 is for the pain that I'm caused   Will strife ever cease? Someday...   Fuck this mind that is made to hate   Complete the task of humility   Restrained from who they want me to be   That's what they want me to be   That is not quite good enough for me   Fuck you and your thoughts on me   Fuck you and your thoughts of me   Fuck you how can I not be me   Fuck you I will never let you take me   I will never be that good little one   I can never see what is so good about life   I can never change just who I am,   just what it is I think I am doing   My hands fell down now I know I failed   You were not there to pick up the waste of this pathetic tale   Maybe I should just end all this right here   Would you like that?   Maybe you could cope knowing that you all have succeeded   I am staying here to betray all of you   Never failing me again   Cut a little...it bleeds slowly can you see it ooze?   I'm going to save me   My eyes turn the color jade   I look at everyone around me   I am so sick of this place   Anyone and anything makes me sick   I just want to end it all   I return to my room walls white with black shades   Oh how would red look?   The reasons are not for your ears   The feelings are not for your heart   I circle in tears wishing, hoping, dreaming   Can I find a way out besides this?   I need it   I want to be where you are   I miss you