As I kick myself again   And I try to pick myself back up again   Don't want to make the same mistake   Always the first with an excuse   But it's when you're cornered by the truth   Sometimes its easier that way      As you turn away   When realization stares you down   And you swear you've come to terms I'm weary   I've seen it all too many times      It never made much sense   So I always had to stop an second guess   Defeat myself before I start   Comfort seems so far away   Peace of mind is just a luxary   Forgetting is the hardest part      It's not what you say matters   Because anyone could say those words to me   You say that I lack compassion   But that's when my first reaction   Isn't how you wanted me to be      As I kick myself again   And I try to pick myself back up again   Don't want to make the same mistake