Wish I was too dead to cry   My self affliction fades   Stones to throw at my creator   Masochists to which I cater      You don't need to bother    I don't need to be    I'll keep slipping farther    But once I hold on    I won't let go 'til it bleeds       Wish I was too dead to care    If indeed I cared at all    Never had a voice to protest    So you fed me shit to digest       I wish I had a reason    My flaws are open season    For this I gave up trying    One good turn deserves my dying       You don't need to bother    I don't need to be    I'll keep slipping farther    But once I hold on    I won't let go 'til it bleeds       Wish I'd died instead of lived    A zombie hides my face    Shell forgotten with its memories    Diaries left with cryptic entries       And you don't need to bother    I don't need to be    (I dont need to be)   I'll keep slipping farther    But once I hold on    I won't let go 'til it bleeds       You don't need to bother    I don't need to be, yeah    (I dont need to be)   I'll keep slipping farther    But once I hold on    (Once I hold on)    I'll never live down my deceits