watching you like this   tears me apart   you regress your feelings   the guilt is all mine   I can't forget a feeling like it meant nothing   torn in two as you   regress this frustration   this walls are closing in on me - my wrists feel so weak   this urge never overcame me so strong   like thorns in my eyes I hear your voice still silent in my ears   in dreams I smile - in consciousness I cry   what happened to the promises?   your lies and hatred   you shut me out   became what you despised magnified   I know it would hurt you but I wish I could just wake you up   you're not waking up this time   set yourself up for self-destruction again   you're not waking up