if i get tired and frightened    at the bottom of my mind    clawing out the insides    knowing what's behind    if i get bored you'll see me    wearing out my face    you know it isn't easy    filling up that space    crushed and faded    suddenly so complicated    crawling back to you    something cold    slipping through    and i know it couldn't stay    here another day    and i don't need to    i don't need to ever know the way    it's only when you hold me    that sometimes i'd forget    kicking back the outsides    and take what i can get    it's the way you move your body    a pleasent cold release    it makes me think it's dirty    when i'm on my knees    crushed and faded    suddenly so complicated    crawling back to you    well something cold    slipping through    and i know it couldn't stay    here another day    and i don't need to    i don't need to ever know the way    i never ever lost control    i never ever lost control    in a light shining    in a quiet end    i know i never ever lost control