I spend time searching my mind, walking blindly   I'm a live but I don't kow why, my thoughts plague me   Paranoia, fear and guilt, I hope I don't explode   I'm a bomb that I can't diffuse, a gun I can't unload      I don't listen, I don't know, man I don't care   Talking about all the hell that you've seen, man I live there   Talk to me and it goes right through, I never heard a word you said   Save your breath, it's no use, you're talking to the living dead      Bullet driven eyes   What can you tell me   I'm living in a nightmare      I'm on the edge shrinking back from the ledge   Looking out my window down upon my heritage   Strip malls, thin walls, people paralyzed beneath the sun   Why me why now   I see the dirty millions and try to survive somehow      Got no reason got no need   I hear gunshots I hear screams   What can you do to me   What can you say   I used to be alive but I threw it all away   I used to have problems   I used to live a lie   But then I saw the sidewalk bleed and I watched his mother cry   I used to use my mind   I used to wonder why   Now I go from day to day and wait around to die   Like he did