I wonder how it would be if my mother was still around   The types of talk   The relationships we could have had   The three of us   Me, you and dad   My mouth went dry   My stomach felt queasy too   So empty and scared   It's all because of you   A dead body that turned out not to be dead   No one understands   Wish I really knew what happened to my mom   Because my family they told me nothing but lies   They figured if they just told me the truth   I'd break down and cry   Feel betrayed and hurt   Profoundly insecure   Want to knock ten times on heaven's door   Still suffering from old emotional wounds   I was getting worse   Can't depend on them and their lies   Why did see leave?    How did she die?    And when it gets colder outside   I'll be back next year   With that feeling to make me cry   Wanna go visit her grave   Because it's been a long, long time   Want to pick a peach rose   And rest it on it's side   Say a prayer eventhough I don't believe   And say goodbye   Don't get me wrong   I have a mind to keep me strong   But there's this feeling of not knowing what went wrong   And how she's dead and gone   Don't think anyone thinks   Of you as much as I do