starting becomes an adherent   obstacle   when all objections are raised   beforehand,   in the head      knowing what one can and will   say against whatever is being   expressed   because it circles that way, in every   single   direction.   friends are the police I'm the police      we define everything here   and push out what is unacceptable   sometimes only based on (its all the same-- its inside)   fear and you get so used t pushing (we don't see eye to eye- we don't)   things away (realize)   that a good idea becomes (we were wrong)   indistinguishable from a bad one (look inside, you can see it)   so we remain unchanged,   never able to grow   this fear driving our controlled sides      we're pushing everything away   that could potentially   save us, we don't know what we're   killing   we just keep wheeling down the   same old rut   policing each other, socializing,   stuck here like the children,   like the fucking kids we are..