Sittin in traffic another day of feeling nothing  Trying to find something I guess it's back to huffin'  Paint and model glue oh how I die when I look  At you smilin' lovin' life and all I know is blue  Rainy days and cold stares broken love affairs  Everything's beautiful as long as I ain't there  I guess I wasn't meant to crack a smile who cares  I think I'll go to sleep for a while now    I'm barely livin' in my skin depression's my only friend  And I don't know where I am heading tryin' to forget where I've been  And I'm so sick of lying God please shwo me that silver lining  Cuz I've heard tale and I'm not well my heads full of hell and  This world's a jail but    And it don't matter and I don't care  I let my pain into the air  Cuz everything good's over there  And everything here's hard to bear  And it don't matter and I don't care  I let my pain into the air  Cuz everything good's over there  And everything here's hard to bear    And as the apin begins to displace had it to ear level  With this place you see it on my face a state of suspended grace  Gradually I erase and find comfort in the sickest womb  I might be present but no in the room  To whom it may consume melting ensembles bleeding chellos running through Bordellos drama   Like Othello hidin' out from Poncharello  Dead off in the Median  Fallin apart like usual handin' out flyers to my funeral    So they say that life's a play and that all the world's a stage  Then for another part I pray the show ends the same way everyday  And my heart carries the pain of a brain I can't explain  Am I insane  Am I insane    And it don't matter and I don't care  I let my pain into the air  Cuz everything good's over there  And everything here's hard to bear  And it don't matter and I don't care  I let my pain into the air  Cuz everything good's over there  And everything here's hard to bear    And everything good is gone  And everything good is gone  And everything good is gone  And everything bad is here  And everything bad is here  And everything bad is here  It doesn't really matter now does it    And it don't matter and I don't care  I let my pain into the air  Cuz everything good's over there  And everything here's hard to bear  And it don't matter and I don't care  I let my pain into the air  Cuz everything good's over there  And everything here's hard to bear