Intense pain.  Deep is the pain of hope.  A feeling you wish for.  You are waiting for a new era.  Impossibility is the name of your hopes.  On the lap of the missing you are carried away.  A thought it is not.  Only your own desires.    "In the night you can hear my voice.  In some you hear my painful screams.  When we are apart I have no choice.  Then I listen to your voice of sadness.  In the night you can see my wounded heart die.  At dawn you can hear me call your name.  When I return I wish to find you there."    One do not wish to die but to rest eternally.  To rest for ever and ever is again a seed.  A place where I decide who stays or not.  Where there is death there is life.  A life beyond the understandable.  A world you can not imagine.  Here I feel complete.