I am twisting all the dials  And Im tweaking all the buttons  And Im sure that pretty soon  Pretty soon all of a sudden  It will hit me why Im here  What I came for why Im leaving  Why you're gone why you're gone why you're going why your gone  I am dipping both my feet into the waters of both rivers  Under both sides of this bridge that I have built to sit and think on  I have built from bank to bank  I have built to sit and think on, sit and think on  Think of you think of you sometimes  I am pacing up the corridor  And pacing down the hallway  I am pacing in the kitchen  In the bathroom, through the doorway  Of my bedroom, past the living room  I panic past the front gate  Till it happens, till it happens  Something had to happen  I am hammering the seconds on the table with my pencil  And my feet dissect the minutes through the hours  And the calendar you gave me I have shredded page from page,  Day from day from page from day  I cannot breathe for fear of failing  I cannot see all these bottles full of nervous words  And jars of lame excuses  All these bottles and jars of lame excuses