I REMEMBER ALL THE   TIMES YOU STARED AT ME   AND YOU TOLD ME I WAS   SOMETHING TO BE PROUD OF   TOOK A WALK TO THE   CORNER STORE IN 85   AND AGAIN IN 86   87 I GOT HIGH FOR THE FIRST TIME   88 IT WAS MY FAVORITE PASTIME   89 I WAS INCHES FROM THE   MAINLINE   ON DIVINE I’M DOING FINE   THIS BEAST DOESN’T LET ME GO   IT’S MAKING ME FEEL   SO STRONG   I’M TRYING TO RE-CREATE INSANITY   FEEL SO STRONG   PUT MYSELF IN A PROGRAM   OF RECOVERY   SAW ANOTHER SIDE OF   LIFE THAT WAS BEAUTIFUL   IT ALLOWED ME TO INCORPORATE A WAY OF LIFE   THAT WAS MEANINGFUL TO YOU   BUT YOU CAN NEVER   LET GO OF THE PAST   SOMETIMES THE WINNER   IS REALLY DEAD LAST   I KNOW I’M CLEAN   BUT MY MIND IS SO   FILTHY, SO BEAUTIFUL   DON’T RUSH ME   I’M FRAGILE   I WON’T BARK   BUT I’LL BIT BACK   AND I’LL ATTACK   DO YOU BELONG?   I’VE BEEN TRYING   TO GET OVER   BEING GOD BUT IT’S   JUST TOO MUCH FUN   TO CONTROL