as I begin    to sink into this fate that I    have tried so hard to tread    while you sit with your magazines    your cigarettes    your apathy    as we continue downward    into lukewarm discontent       descending side by side    as retrospect and time   devour our thoughts    and our long nights      with such civilized    but brutal taste in    suffering and self disgrace    your disappointment paints your eyes a darker shade of brown    and your poor excuses reek of such expensive wine    while my replies of cowardice    get molded into forgiveness for    everything you said    and everything you did       i have failed to forgive you for either    i tried but i failed to forgive any aspects of either       fairweathered friend    how could these eyes ever forget    those lustfull nights    seeing your lips pressed against theirs    as i tried to forget    i tried but failed       as i begin to sink into this fate    that i have tried so hard to tread    because apparently i'm much too dense    your much too tired and oh so stressed   ignoring all these words that i am struggling to say       so put down your pill bottles    put down your glass of wine    put down all of your magazines    and look me in the eye    and tell me that your happy   tell me this is what you wanted from me   because it's everything i have    and everything i can afford    such curteous envy       i tried but i failed to forgive any aspects of either       fairweathered friend    how could these eyes ever forget    those lustfull nights    seeing your lips pressed against theirs    as i tried to forget    i tried but failed       she never said she wants it all    i bet she does   i bet she does