We drank bottled water together and talked business    I think I played the right moves    you were looking over my shoulder    as I went through the motions of another night       And it was allright,because I thought I knew    who everybody was just by looking at them    my heart is anywhere but here       And how tired I was from the past couple weeks    from the past couple years, well it hit me all at once    on a balcony overlooking nothing    with snow falling all around    well I, I called just to say good-night       And you hadn't done anything wrong    really, it's me not you    I can't believe how naive I was    to think things could ever be so simple       And can you live with what you know about yourself    when your all alone behind closed doors    the things we never said but we always knew were right there    and it's got me on my knees in a bathroom    praying to a god I don't even believe in    "Dear jesus...are you listening?"    if this is the one chance that really matters    don't let me fuck this up       If you had told me about all this when I was fifteen    I never would have believed it.