What do I have to lose having lost so much that matters. All that I've loved for so long is now gone.      What if I have more to lose?   Havent I suffered enough?      Is it too soon or am I just holding on?   If death is in the wind then let it blow me away.   Why didnt i try to change when I saw it coming all along?   I knew it was the end long before it had ended.   In the silence of my mind,can I find something to replace my pain?   Now I sink in desperation learning to deal with the pain.   I wont cry no more,I wont give myself that satisfaction.   I know those feelings may someday rise again. Until then,I'll be waiting for tragedys end.      If death is in the wind then let it blow me away.      Why didnt i try to change when I saw it coming all along?   I knew it was the end long before it had ended.   In the silence of my mind,can I find something to replace my pain.