In the hollow of your arms  Snuggled up safe and warm  You used to tell me tales of unicorns and kings  But how could I comprehend  All the things you told me then  Of your maddness and your struggling  My mind would swim in fantasies  Like a piece of driftwood on the sea  I had no touchstone for reality  You were my reality  Like a dark and unlit room  Or the far side of the moon  Your insanity spoke emptiness and fear  No matter how I tried  How I questioned and I pried  I just could not penetrate that thin veneer  And I know you tried to comfort me  To soothe and reassure me  But then your strength would always fail  And in it's place a silken veil  Like a dried and wrinkled prune  A deflated toy balloon  I came home and found you strewn across the floor  And as they lay you on your bed  I heard you say "If I am dead,  How come it just keeps on hurtin' more and more"  And you left me in the early spring  All they said was "Mommy's resting"  And how was I to know so young  It wasn't something I had done  So please try and understand  I will love you as I can  I do not blame you, you're not guilty  But still theres no way to describe  The relief I finally found  Upon learning it was you  And not me  That was crazy