And everytime i stand  I fall back down  Bleeding, healing  Waiting to come around  And everytime i land  It hurts even more  Reaching for the handle  Of a closed door    I check the rear view mirror  Like it's got all the answers  Looking up ahead  Seems pointless i can't answer  The phone or the messages  Or any type of contact  I miss it the most  The heat from the contact  The numbers keep coming  The drummer keeps drummin'  I'm wanna start running  I'm ready to start runnin'  Chase my breath  Don't want what comes next  Comparing new people to you  And that's not the best  Of it, i loved it how  You started to cry  Reveal an ounce of loss  Before i left for the night  It was the most saw  Of a heart inside you  I've met people for a day  That hug harder than you  You're afraid, scared  Cold and alone  Singing in the same key  With a different tone  You could have said please  With a blow so low  You hit damn hard  And i'm stronger than most    And everytime i stand  I fall back down  Bleeding, healing  Waiting to come around  And everytime i land  It hurts even more  Reaching for the handle  Of a closed door    You wanna touch the bruise  You pick at the scab  You wanna break the bone  You wanna sign the cast  We did't last  And neither did this  You're worthless now  And so is a friendship  You're kiddin' yourself  With a lack of color  And remember to laugh  Everytime you stutter  With the digital toys  The clean cut boys  Your oversized coat  And robot voiced throat  How are the parties  The people and the liquor  How are the drugs  That you need to get thinner  It's all part of the deal  You without me  Me without you  Is gettin' harder to do  Still haven't got a clue  What it was this time  Like what's new with you  And who's hand replaced mine  Still can't believe  That it's come to this  Retracin' old steps  That i'm bound to miss    And everytime i stand  I fall back down  Bleeding, healing  Waiting to come around  And everytime i land  It hurts even more  Reaching for the handle  Of a closed door