Every moment of everyday,   All I dream about is running away  Or I try and find the quickest fix,   But every time I try to hit, I miss,   For far too long, I used to be so strong.   And I have difficulty breathing.   I can't hear my heart beating.   I have numbered all my insides   Because I don't wanna be lost on the outside.  I used to walk but now I just stumble.   Everything I love seems so far gone.   Is it worth it? Am I just a failure -   Waiting for my world to come crashing down?   And I have difficulty breathing.   I can't hear my heart beating.   I have numbered all my insides   Because I don't want to be lost on the outside.   And I, and I, and I - don't wanna be lost ... on the outside.