my quest is simple   a desire i´m trying to feed   ever since aware of myself   consciousness - just being there to bleed   eyesore for others - since the day i was born   i feel the guilt for being me   i feel the shame for being bron   i feel the engine      i´ve already begun to feel dead   if notfor the people that surround   i would drift away or fall apart   dissolve my being without a sound   the engine...the core..the focus of my world   occupying, fueling...uncoupling my two selfs to be heard      i know nobody   i´m known by none   non being    nothing to anyone   i have no passions   i have no friends   i need the engine   ..to repent   ...my only sin..to repent my only sin!!!!    ...to...repent...    ...to...repent...    i´m only me   the body   the engine!!!      tear down the body   dismantle my inner structure   destroy the shell that contains my soul      ...my soul...    become the engine