Now I know it ain't right, but I decided I hadta' /   Us poets paint life, but don't get recognized till afta' /   So I faked my own death just to see what would happen /   As I taje shallow breaths and wait for people's reaction /   It was funny at first, but I had to hold my laughter...wait /   Before long I was on display at an open casket wake /   And I'm the main attraction who draws a crowd. A freak show of sorts /   Good thing my skin is pale enough to pass as a decomposing corpse /   Frozen in my thoughts, laying stiff...playing with    / People's emotions and awaiting a kiss from praying lips that I hate but miss.      She didn't show...although she sent a card with flowers /   How considerate. That little bitch would make me sit in my car for hours /   Heartless powers start to devour my patience...it gets me violent /   I'm ready to fly shit and end everything like "I QUIT!"   Then again I sit deathly quiet...biting my tongue /   Just excited that some kids...who were invited to come did /   I'm the center of attention...the talk of the town /   It ain;t all that profound, but on this special day of mine I'm the one the universe revolves around /   It's like a birthday...kind of.   I also found that it's the worst way to find love.   White doves battle black crows in one of the back rows /   And everybody my ass knows back home is sporting black clothes /   Looking glum as usual...it's all too familliar /   I put the fun back into funeral. My morbid humor'll kill ya' /   For all that it's worth...the people who I thought were jerks /   Were putting on the water works and it sorta hurts /   My momma stroked my hair with so much care but hardly spoke /   Now my heart is broke, and yeah...I should've let her in on the joke /   But I'm honestly choked up, and I'm stuck holding back my tears /   As I absorb the atmosphere, "I wanna turn back I'm scared!"   Then a hand touches my shoulder to calm my nerves /   And something odd occurs because I heard my father's words /   So I got disturbed...as he expressed what he's never said /   What bothered me the most is that I remembered...he's dead /   I manifested destiny. The best and worst of worlds has come true /   As I'm buried alive, in the back of my mind echoes his words:      "I love you."