My head aches, and feels the blunt vice grips   hanging over my tequila sunrises   Confide and write this to de-scribe a love life    that's feeling love lifeless   I'm the type that'll cherish frozen winters   stare at snowy blizzards and take it to heart   Then break it apart, I carry hopes and blisters   Cutting heart strings with a pair of broken scissors   I'm still trapped in a middle school slow dance   Stepping on toes in a mistletoe romance   Misanthrope, discomposed who holds hands   with grief...Kissing hope with no chance, but me   I'm just searching for some beautiful   a dream that I can catch And a person who's unusual   When I find her, I'll try to face the tide   Fight the hurricane, and tidal wave, goodbye…      And I watch all the spectrums of angels   Choking to death on the septums and halos   Bread crumbs and fables, why change?   I hang at the ends of the pay phone   With no change or number to reach   What blankets the sky I slumber beneath   Under the speech, this song's about hope, joy, love and defeat   All it takes is a peaceful autumn day   For you to be happy and me to call it fate   Even after a fucked up childhood, I'm still tryin'   To believe in God and grace      I try to get a piece of peace and sit and listen infinitely   Holdin onto benefits, and isnt it so innocent? We   Try to find another time and underline the cynical   Its pitiful we run and hide and undermind the innermost   When intervals of miserable will find a figure four   And force the phyiscal and inner soul to find a bitter form   And form another time and place where you can go and be so suitable   When all I wanna do is go and search for something beautiful, in me      I died once, and I knew that it was suitable   I died twice, and I sang it like a musical   I died again when I thought that the noose would hold   Everything I love in the search for some beautiful      I died once, and I knew that it was suitable   I died twice, and I sang it like a musical   I died again when I thought that the noose would hold   Everything I love in the search for some beautiful