living downwind of something foul,    learning not to choke    (this time there's misdirection)    it seems so impossible,    but the stench is unstoppable    (a body unpreserved, has this salvation taught you nothing?)    don't cry for help    don't fix yourself    just live forever this way    our ears ring of disappointment    feel it when you shut that door    again and again and against the other side    she drowns in your...    i give up face down the stairs and grip the banister fight to convince yourself that he still cares    (why don't you care?)    take a breath and choke on the smell of the dying (neglect these souls that sink)    get sick quick and lungs are closed forever    (bolt this coffin shut and grip your shovel hard) living downwind of something foul,    learning not to choke    (dig and don't force change)    it seems so impossible,    but the stench, it's unstoppable    (please save me, i'm burning, i'm falling, goodbye) i cannot kid myself anymore    i'm dying this way    "that's impossible," you say    but it was you who taught me to live this way, and i'm dying