It turns out cigarettes can kill you   cause when you didn't come back   every time that I thought of you   I smoked a whole pack      I was up to about seventeen packs a day   I was refueling too   about every hour or so   I drank a bottle of white mule      I wasn't thinking about turquoise   I wasn't thinking about gold   I wasn't thinking about thinking   or about getting old      got to be so I didn't care   if I was leaving or loving   oh, what I was   and what I was becoming      I don't want to in your arms   I just want to die   don't want to die in you arms   I just want to die      and like a marionette doll   oh, manned by a fool   I went into the chicken shed   started looking for tools      well I worked for a month   build some sky and some clouds   and I built some myself some angels   with trumpets so loud      well they played hallelujah   and I knew I was done   I walked through a golden gate with pearl inlays   saw a never setting sun      well I knew I was dead   I couldn't do no more harm   well I built myself a heaven   where you died in my arms      well you died in my arms when I died   well you died in my arms when I died   well you died in my arms when I died   you died in my arms when I died