I sit and stare expressionlessly   Out the window and into the lifeless field   Blooming flowers you said would never bloom   My apartment, so loveless, a murderous white room      Silence fills the need for words to be spoken    Poorly mended hearts fulfill the need for more to be broken   Feel my feet slide into the wet cement   Close my eyes and run my fingers through my hair      Look up at the ones clear sky and wonder   Why my back is always against the wall   Watch falling stars plummet into the ocean   Wonder why I’m the only one to slip and fall      I’m not going to regret crying tomorrow   Only today   Lights out early tonight on 5th street   Lights out, and don’t turn them on   I don’t want to see me like this   Break my mirrors   I don’t want to see me like this   No one does      Sit down on my bench   More and more it seems like home   Stare at what I wish I had   But I don’t have to wish   I can go home to my unpaid bills   And unmade bed   And smell that crazy perfume you used to wear   Take out your picture and light some candles   And strum some chords and bring you to mind      Lights out   Lights out on 5th street   Don't turn them on   I don't want to see me like this