And so I'll keep the smile of the martyr    Held back for you    To shut you out of mind    Hiding behind this grinning facade    The skeleton smile of my former joy    You won't find out how much I feel the hurt    That tightens around me and pulls me down    The feelings that serve to remind me that    I cannot afford to trust you again       The smile of the martyr will shut you out    There can be no share of the pain for you    The smile of the martyr will shut you out    You cut the umbilical    Now suffer the child       I'll wear a crown of thorns upon my head    Raise the unholy cross I have to bear    My hands free of scars    I'll hang by the nails    That you've nailed into my vibrant heart    Sold for whatever profit you may seek    A sacrifice I did not want to make    Unlike Him I cannot walk away    From this, my Garden of Gethsemane       The smile of the martyr will shut you out    There can be no share of the pain for you    The smile of the martyr will shut you out    You cut the umbilical    Now suffer the child       I'll suffer the lash of the mental whip    And the cruel rack of stretching hours alone    All done in silence    You won't hear me scream    I can't let you see the damage done to me    I'll close my gouged eyes to your temptation    Hide within myself    Thoughts of nights past    This martyr's smile tells more than you can know    Of the pain and pleasure you've put me through