I've surrendered so much I've forgotten to live    You ask for too much    But what do you give?    The scales now fall from before my eyes    And I can see through your artifice    Finally the truth has dawned upon me    And with its light    I can clearly see    That I am alone when I am with you    To my feelings I can never be true    Seeds of doubt will never bear fruit    And so it is our love follows suit       I can give no more    I need something back    And you seem unable to relieve my lack    The giving has just been all on one side    And no one can tell me I have not tried    I see from the past I must cut loose    The time of my going I will choose    A letting of blood and an end to pain    My life in this way I will regain       I can't look on you in the same way now    Absolutes have turned to relatives    And I am consumed by a family of doubts    I can hear whispers through the shouts    Sounds and tones that, whilst discordant    Raise me from my slumber dormant    Your fell deeds make a lie of your words    To say you love me seems absurd    And I will laugh as I have the heart    The will to end this and make a new start       I can give no more    I need something back    And you seem unable to relieve my lack    The giving has just been all on one side    And no one can tell me I have not tried    I see from the past I must cut loose    The time of my going I will choose    A letting of blood and an end to pain    My life in this way I will regain       Surrounded by lotus    But wracked by pain    On my waking life it has left its stain    While much of my suffering has gone unseen    The truth is again that I have been    Laid low by the sacrifice I have made for you    The help I needed I think you knew    Bowed under the yoke    A crippling weight    These wounds you'll see far too late    Sadly I know they'll not go unwept    Blame the promises you have not kept