This can't be fucking real    why did you wake me from this sleep   I tried to Rest I.n P.eice   but you left me here to breathe   I don't wanna live    can you fucking hear me GOD   can you see me now   Im strapped up   locked up in this hospital   smacked up with some lithium   why did you make it so impossible for me    you took them all    everyone I fucking loved    you never gave me nothing   your the reason I take drugs    your the reason that I cried for hugs when I was young   where were you then God   and where was your fucking son   Im still waiting for you god    look what you fucking done    I close my eyes and pray    but you never fucking come   tell me why you hate me    why do you hate me      hook-singing screaming cries      this torment that I've lived   makes me think this shit is all a fucking trick, a fucking lie    why did you make live god?   why?   you couldn't hurt me if you tried   Im so fucking scarred from what you did to me   I lost my fucking mind.    send me down a demon    someone to understand   somebody I could trust    someone to hold my fucking hand   somebody to hold me   cause I cant comprehend what it really means to be loved    cause I have no fucking clue god   I have no fucking clue   I don't know what it feels like   and I blame that all on you    why me god?   why am i the one you leave?   when I needed you the most   why did you turn your fucking back on me?