Hey Debbie how you been? It’s me Mary Jane   You know your only daughter the one you left in pain   The one you left over the heroin and cocaine   And it’s been really hard for me to come see you again   And I don’t even know if I’m hurt or if I’m mad   Oh and by the way have you seen or heard from dad   I think he’s doing good he’s living with his new wife   I heard she keeps him clean and I guess she treats him right   And I know how Pop-pop died really must have hurt you   Cancer took the only father both of us ever knew   And it’s been really hard on Grandma   We don’t speak any longer   She disowned me too told me I was just like my mother   And I know that being a teenage mom wasn’t that appealing   But I can still remember the sun you painted on my ceiling   Now I’m an artist too except I do it for the healing   To take away this heartache and this misery I’m feeling      And I’ve grown tired of being alone   Lord I know starry eyes close   And momma why won’t you ever come home   Lord I know starry eyes close      They say that you and I we share the same traits   The same pretty eyes they say they see you in my face   Same Sybil moods same wicked ways   Same addictions except you took it to the vein   I was always afraid of you the track marks on your arms   And you were always passing out and taking me to bars   Or you left me home alone or you left me in the car   Now I’m all alone and you left me with these scars   My sleep is filled with nightmares about the life you chose   Were you alone in that apartment did you really overdose   I wonder could I have stopped it did you even leave a note   I didn’t even know you lived a mile from my home   That afternoon I heard you died I thought it was a joke   I didn’t know that you were sick or that you had had a stroke   I would have went to see you at least we could have spoke   Why’d you have to die so young you were just 33 years old      And I’ve grown tired of being alone   Lord I know starry eyes close   And momma why won’t you ever come home   Lord I know starry eyes close      Well here I am momma standing at your grave   I lay my head down on the marble just to ease the pain   I used to come here all the time and pray that you were saved   Get on my knees close my eyes and ask the Lord for strength   And I understand cause I got my own set of sins   But it makes me sad to think how weak you really must have been   You had a choice between your only child and heroin   And it was heroin that won the battle in the end   And not a day goes by   I don’t think about what could have been   But in the end I’m at your grave fighting tears again   I miss you bad as fuck my throat keeps tightening up   Do you even remember I have a birthday coming up?   Until the day I die