On the porch, she will sit,   light another cigarette,   and take a sip of anything that makes it right.   She's outside, trying to hide from the fight just inside,   where her mom and her dad destroy each other   and on the phone she will call   every boy, yeah, one and all.   They will touch her in all the right places.      And in her room, she will slide   down the bed and try to fly,   and she will fall once again for the feeling   and as he grabs her brown hair,   she is faking   that the feeling he gives her is real   as the floor underneath the bed is   breaking    she will finish what she starts with "i love you."      so from her head to her toes,   nervous hands and runny nose,   all of this just for one night of feeling   and in her ears she will hear   all the things that hide her fears   of dying young and making plans for the future.      and all the marks on her arms   symbolize a fractured heart   and all the boys that were smart   left her alone      so from the roof, she will fly   15 feet down the side   of the house where she once was happy      yes it's true, she's aware   that she is breaking   and it's true, she can't do anything   well in her blue underwear   she is thinking how   in jesus' precious name   she got here      well it's sad but it's true   she is ending   but for now, she will pray for some wings   on a black cadillac she is landing hard   yet her parents' biggest worry is the car