I find it hard, to believe   It took all of my living years for me to see   The most of the things I've ever wanted   And most of the things I've ever owned, keep me from knowing my   soul      I feel i'm falling into a trial   I'm listening to a lot of people telling me what I could have   And you know, it's sound so good, when your head is full of   substances and deceive   I don't wanna be lonely, I need a word   I don't wanna be hurted the way that I am      And i'm trying to talk to an angel   But I feel like i'm talking to myself   No matter how hard I try to live   Or how much I believe in you, i'll keep doing what the devil   says to do   i'll keep doing what the devil says to do      I keep talking to myself and the conversation never seems to   change   You're a liar, you're a fool and you think you're paying dues   saying that you're hopeless, faithless, but that ain't true   You're just living something I can't find my way out of      And i'm trying to talk to an angel   But I feel like i'm talking to myself   No matter how hard I try to live   Or how much i believe in you, i'll keep doing what the devil   says to do   i'll keep doing what the devil says to do      And I listen to my heart, I listen to my soul and i'm doing what   my heart tells me to do   I'll keep doing what the devil says to do