you were a friend or maybe a twin   i never really could decide   you came to my door, i was on the floor   i couldn't let you up inside      i didn't mean to let you down   and now i know everything that's good is gone      i couldn't explain when i said you're a pain   i never knew another way   all the times that we saw falling down every hall   the better parts have been erased      i tried to make it happen   i tried to do things right   i swallowed two and thought of you   but never saw your sight      i slept away the summer   i dreamt away the days   but the nightmares came when i woke up   and knew you were away