We stole all Mama's baggage    And stuffed it with Daddy's cologne and Sunday best   And then I sat up in bed in a nervous sweat   Waiting for those creaking warning stairs   As the lights went out, I snuck out my window    And ran down those railroad tracks   There's no turning back   No, I ain't turning back   This city's a crucifix and I have suffered for it   Just feel the scar along my side   And I'm no savior   But I could have saved you from this Bible-beating life   The train leaves half past twelve      You're too afraid to live without   Without a father   With no provider   We're bastards all along   When they dumped you in the lake   Were you held under too long?   My only brother   We swore we'd both escape from the cloth      In Mama's baggage, I found a photo    Of our trip to Colorado Springs   I was young and defiant, but you were compliant   A happy toddler in Daddy's arms   I hung the picture upon the mirror in my dingy motel room   The sirens howl at night, strangers prowl outside   I tremble in bed thinking of you   I tried to call the house   I keep hanging up the phone   When I hear his voice, I remember those Sundays    And I'm glad I finally left home   I'd rather be alone than wrong      You keep nesting away your doubt   But I'm no sinner   Sure, I've made some mistakes   Some I can't forgive   And this might be my hell   But at least I damned myself   No more preachers nailing me to the cross      You're too afraid to live without   He who believes will be saved   He who believes will behave      So I'm condemned, huh?   Some baptism, anointed with piss and spit   How could you leave me behind and join their side?   How long until we all surrender?