I was trying to look so hard   I was trying to find my way   I woke up sleeping    With green eyes, brown eyes   Get them away from me      There's nothing I will regret   There's nothing to forget   The empty mirror   I'll cut your face with a razor blade today      And I try to look so bad   To not fit in your world   My pretty face is going straight to hell   And I try to look so bad   To hurt my parents now   And heaven is the closest thing to hell      I'm walking these streets again   In fear of everyone   With the scary eyes   But it's too cold to be alone today      I'll finally take the broken dream   I'll tear my (?) on my jeans   And in the clubs   They all belong to me      And I try to look so bad   They check my social worth   Those fascist dogs,    Please get them away from me   And I try to look so bad   To feel good inside   And heaven is the closest thing to hell      And I try to look so bad   I try to look so bad   For a moment of true love   For a moment of true love   And I wanna be with you   But I don't know who you are   And heaven is   Heaven is the closest thing to hell