I destroyed you to protect you   From all the things I never want to be   I ruined you so I could ruin me   No guilt, no sympathy for me      Self destruction never seemed so beautiful   Anesthesia only hides what won't die      I've never climbed so high   But I only have further to fall   I never asked myself why   I never gave it any thought at all      I need to separate, to divide   Before I take you down with me   Perhaps I'm too sick to pray   Or not sick enough to   It's too late for me      There's nothing I can do to save you from me   Forget everything you are and forgive me