I've looked to the bottom    Of a bottle and a can   And I've looked for the wonder   In the leather of a man    And it was never enough, you see   It was never quite enough for me   I knew there'd be hell to pay    Along the way   For living as I chose to   And I ask myself    In the middle of the night   Just who could love me    And is there a light    That I've failed to see    That could save me    From this free and lonely life?       I looked to my mother   And she gave a steady hand   But she was short on answers   So I kept short on plans   I looked to the city   I took a hard, steady look at fame   And I laughed when i realized that it was   Just another empty name    And it couldn't be enough, you see    No, it couldn't be enough for me   I knew there'd be hell to pay    Along the way   For living as I chose to      Fair's just what you get away with      Eventually you don't miss what's not there   But I never figured out how to just not care    And maybe that's all I need, you see    Is for it to never be enough for me   I knew there'd be hell to pay    Along the way    For living as I chose to   I knew there'd be hell to pay    Along the way    For living as I chose to      Fair's just what you get away with   Yeah, it's what you get away with