THE MESSAGE       Back inside I left myself with feeling    I've been running form all my life    It was a message that was given to me    Through dysfunctional family    Mom had to drink to take herself from the hole    She dug herself in too deep    And left little of the torture behind    dad had a knack for biding time    He took a walk after leaving my head in a place    I had to struggle just to get it out    He'll never know the things that I know    The things I had to do    But did I let it go    Smashing all my demons rising    The mother of saints I hate who are    Now that I can see things for the way they are    They tell me I'm not good enough    I won't believe in the cutting of words    Don't want to live in this fucked up world    I made a vow not to give to a thing called fear    As I exterminate every feeling    It was a message to you my brother    Looks like it's one or the other    Shrouded in a cell of violence    The awakening of the feelingless now