I am never growing on the inside.    Life it seems has said goodbye.    The pain that came from all the lies still hurts when I have to wipe my eyes.    I tried so hard in letting go.    I tried to leave but you said no.    I cannot think on my own.    I have no strength and yet I see that I am you and you aren't me.    Stinging kisses left on my lips,    I remember that day and what I most miss.    The score is tied, we are to blame.    I stand helpless, crippled with shame.    You do not laugh, you do not cry.    White faced I stare as you go by.    Riddled with ideas of hate, malignant crimes free from fate.    The choice is made, it's too late.    Now you cannot turn away.    I still have things I cannot say.    Walking along that desperate line, one miss step and you'll fall behind.    Left with holes I cannot mend, death seems to be the one true end.    Staying near, curing fear, fulfilling me when you're not here.