Lately I've been having lots of nightmares   I have not been sleeping very well   The things I've done, they never cease to haunt me   They follow me around like a lost puppy dog      And maybe in a couple years   I can make friends of my fears   and the past won't run ahead and slow me down   And maybe in a little while   well, I could learn to smile   without the help of alcohol or drugs      Lately I've been seeing lots of doctors   "you tested negative, kid, have some fun"   So I sit at home watching figure skating   I search the web for interracial porn      And maybe in a couple years   I can make friends of my fears   and the past won't run ahead and slow me down   And maybe in a little while   well, I could learn to smile   without the help of alcohol or drugs   Alcohol and drugs