It was our first holiday to share and the best I've ever known   These memories come crashing back to chill me to the bone   The tree up in the living room those presents wrapped with bows   Was our attempt to make that damn apartment our own   Do I get your mom and dad a gift this year, it just seems a little weird   It brings me down to think of how much things have changed this year   I wanna hear you say you miss me but don't want to tell you what to say   Just looking for a reason to wake up on Christmas day   It seems like you just don't understand   Losing faith in holidays that slip right through my hands   I'm hoping if you hear this song you know just what I mean   Either happy at last or done for good but no more in between   I wanna feel the way I did last year when we moved into that place   When I finish wrapping gifts, I want my pillow to still hold your face   So tell me that what were working towards   The best gift that you could give me would be something to look for   So tell me that's what were working towards and I'm not your little cheer   In hopes that we could get this right by this time next year   So tell me that's what were working towards and I'm not your little cheer   In hopes that we could get this right by this time next year   This time next year   This time next year