I can’t remember smiles on Christmas day    And even if I smile it wasn’t real anyway    What I do recall is laying in the snow    And wishing I didn’t have to go home    I know this isn’t what you want to hear    But I’m not looking forward to Christmas this year       So I sleep on it, and dream on it    And hope to find the reason on this day    That I can breakaway    And start over, but I’m not so sure    That this one will be different than the last    And I can leave all of those winters in the past       I can always tell it’s coming by the way    Silence winds are growing colder everyday    And I could hear the freezing hands of time    Slowing down as people pass me by    And I know this isn't what they want to hear    But I’m not looking forward to Christmas this year       So I sleep on it, and dream on it    And hope to find the reason on this day    That I can breakaway    And start over, but I’m not so sure    That this one will be different than the last    And I can leave all of those winters in the past       So I sleep on it, and dream on it    And hope to find the reason on this day    That I can breakaway    And start over, but I’m not so sure    That this one will be different than the last    And I can leave all of those winters in the past