The traffic's back for miles   On these quiet suburban roads   While the rubber necking strangers   Are dying to see this victim's wounds   Cause he's all alone   With his notebooks and poems   In this empty grave where he wrote   All of his secrets that became his lyrics   With no intent to show anyone      And we give and we give   But its all for nothing   We try to resist but I give   Everything and its all for nothing      So the panic sets and cycles   HIs mind for restless sleep   While the blood sucking leeches contaminate every line they read   Just leave him alone in this dark room   This white sheet tightly wrapped cocoon   Cause it's no secret I fucking need this   Like I don't need anyone      It's like I'm falling asleep with my eyes open   Shutting down and off the lights   Cause after all of this it's all or nothing   Still I wouldn't try to fight   I've fallen asleep with my eyes open   Shutting down and off the lights   Cause after all of this it's all or nothing   Still I wouldn't try to fight   And you'll lie to all your friends   About sights you never saw   And you'll preach to all the press   About what you don't know at all      So let me drown so I can breathe again   I'm through choking and suffocating   On alter egos and alterior motives   Which weight you down and take control of   The way you are and the things that you need   The life you live and the dreams that you dream   Distort and blur all in slow motion   They broke you down and now you're broken   And it's sadder than the saddes movie   I ever saw but without the beauty   So I stopped watching, I stopped caring   I lost all interest and I stopped wearing   These plastic smiles I'll wash my hands clean   I'll forget that you forgot about me   And I'll live the life, the big city feeling   Cause it's better than suburban dreaming   Living off the friends that hate you   Who talk shit on me   LIke I don't know who my real friends are   Anymore no I don't know you anymore   And it's sadder than the saddest movie   I ever saw but without the beauty   So I'll stop watching, I'll stop caring   Spill the ink and spill your guts again