there's no sense waiting in this state    i've realized too late    there's only so much left inside    only so much space to hide    i've dreamed of castles in the air    but i've never found out where    i need a break or a vacation    before i give myself a scare       don't try to understand me your logic won't command me    don't try to read between my mind       if i could kill you with a touch    i'd never hate this much    one thousand colors every day    but all i see is grey    my history is plagiarized    i feel desensitized    maybe one more shot of reason    will ripple this disguise       i told that man just what i thought of him    so i'm right where i am tied to this bed    subconsciously restrained and now i wish i hadn't said    what i said to both of my parents because i made my mother cry    if they'd only wait i'll make it up to them because i can be a better man       i'm floating in a frozen sea    i'll watch the morning break    giving way to shades of brown    i see the colors all around    for once there's no one here but me    and my autumn reverie    and in my heart i know    it's as close as i'll ever be