there was a time when i had nothing to explain   oh, this mess i have made   but then things got complicated   my innocence has all but faded   oh, this mess i have made      and i don't believe in God   so i can't be saved   all alone as i've learned to be   in this mess i have made      all the untested virtue   the things i said i'd never do   least of all to you   i know he's kind and true   i know that he is good to you   he'll never care for you more than i do      but i don't believe in love   and i can't be changed   all alone as i've learned to be   in this mess   i have made the same mistakes   over and over again      there are rooms in this house that i don't open anymore   dusty books of pictures on the floor   that she will never see   she'll never see that part of me   i want to be for her   what i could never be for you      but i don't believe in God   so i can't be saved   all alone as i've learned to be   in this mess i have made