I'm not feeling human anymore  Half connected all the time  Each night I document the things I've done  The pointless points I've made for stupid reasons  Every night I'm always the same  You're pounding on my brain  Tonight and every night  I lie down clenching up my teeth  Trying to fall asleep  I've sat and smoked a billion cigarettes  And wished to hell that you were here  My stained and calloused fingers hold a pen  Scratching apologies to you too late too little  Every night I pay off my debts  Trust me I don't forget  Tonight and every night  I will analyze everything  And make myself count the ways  I fucked up today