everything was going so well   i don’t know what happened   a smashing sound and suddenly   i’m falling to the ground      if i had just held on for once   if i had been more   confident in myself   maybe less afraid of everything   if you had not been painful for me   if you had been more honest with me   i might have made it      sorrow comes again   for reasons unexplained   i come to you   but i am not the same   you sense my fear   tell me it’s ok   a cross to bear   i pull too far away      all the world can see right through me   i feel shattered and paralyzed   mistakes have been made that left me   crashing through the ice   i feel so alone      if i had just stood up for once   if i had walked right out the door and into   something more than we could get   if you had only learned how to stop   if you had been more than you are   then maybe we could have survived      without regrets   without the same tired thing   i will release you   like shooting stars   of who we are   of who we were then