i dropped all of my lovers.    i stood up and screamed ' I'm in love! '       you gave it to me through the eyes, hatred.    centuries deep and true.    i was wrong, graceless, and sick.    all of the things that i had learned had been wasted.       there was no living creature as foul as i,    and all of my poems were false.    i could feel my soul, dropping down through the mattress.    i had to leap up before it hit the floor.    and I'm so alone.       illumination held out in front of my reaching arms.    the darker things get the better i see.    I'm so alone and so are you,    we all live and die that way.